Welcome back strangelet and everyone else. I thought I would greet myself too as no body seems to be reading my blogposts. Today is the day four of my declutter journey. Honestly, I have tried something called dopamine detox before. I think I picked up my phone again on fifth day or so. But I do not think that's going to be the case with me this time!
I started my day as usual. I try to be mindful when I take walks, but I happen to zone out a little most of the time. My mind keeps wandering, whether I go with my dad or my cousin. I need to fix it but I'll take my time. I danced a little bit today; to the choreography I learned day before yesterday. I'm pretty impressed in my dancing skills. I need to dance more is what I know. Let's see how it goes. After having a plate of idli and fish curry, I started reading digital minimalism. This chapter was about improving social interactions and networks. The motivation was to make use of available high-bandwidth inside our brain for social interactions and not that highly evolved part go waste just by doing low-bandwidth activities like texting, liking a post or leaving comments under the post. A concept called conversation centric communication was introduced which is basically making all social interaction conversation centric. The practices introduced made sense to this concept. That included,
- Do not click like, ever.
- Consolidate texting
- Hold conversation office hours
The first one is literal. Consolidate texting means you put exact time slots to check your messages as I'm doing right now, just like checking emails. Holding conversation office hours is a policy where you tell everyone that you are available to talk or meet at this time on at a particular day and dedicate that time for meaningful conversation. It also includes sitting at a cafe with book or paper, and chatting with someone if someone wants to talk which I found interesting. As I read them, the first one seemed a little hard but the other two seemed fine. The other two were fine because trust me no body calls me or texts me except my mom and my dad. Clicking like to posts I like has become a habit. But I see it fading. This is because I logged out of my YouTube account on my iPad and I'm using it to watch choreographies, uke lessons without signing in. I find myself habitually clicking like button but it doesn't allow you to like unless you are logged in. I might get rid of this habit soon.
I sat down to study and I read some pages; here arrived our electrician brother to fix stuffs in my room. I had to leave and spend time talking to mom or simply sit to boredom. However, I didn't end up picking my phone up. After the electrician left, I look at my room. WOW!! I seem to like it. Me and my dad cleaned and I arranged my stuffs. I can't stop looking at it. It's exactly like how I imagined. I'm a person who doesn't really worry about the way I look or dress. Rather, I focus on devices, my studying environment and my personal well being. So, a good study makes me want to learn. I have this habit of sleeping in the afternoon. I need to avoid it as a lot of time is just wasted. I figured a way to that. I'll try it tomorrow. You know how I cleaned my study after electrician left, I found myself a little active. So I suppose, a little physical activity right after the meal doesn't make you fell lethargic.
You know what? I found clarity about the burnout I had. During my time to check text messages, I encountered story update of my previous coach. She uploaded a video on how restrictive diet can lead to burn out. I felt very sad for that my own past self. It kind of makes sense now, I used to think about food a lot. Workout stress, diet stress, cooking stress and a little bit of school stress was too much I guess. Now I know. I shouldn't be trying to loose weight while I'm trying to give my 100% on school work. That news left me in awe as well as kind of made me happy that finally the puzzle is solved. My mom and dad wasn't home at that time. So I was super bored. I studied Feynman's lecture on Physics a little bit. It was an interesting finish of 3rd chapter. It felt so poetic yet made so much sense as it is science. The above picture is a snippet from that paragraph. It motivated me to read more; but my grandmother when no body's home feels so lonely and scared so I had to sit with her for a while just chatting. I was bored and I can't ick my phone up. I succeeded. I prefer boredom over mindless scrolling.
After a while I designed logo for this website. Honestly, canva AI gave me the idea and I used ChatGPT to customize it. It included most of myself; yin and yang, fire and water energy, S letter, strangelet written in coding font expressing my interest in technology as well as the logo depicting a particle strangelet, antimatter. It's bold as well as cool just like me haha. Since, I was bale to finish it early, I picked my uke up and played a lesson on youtube and practiced some chords for the sond You are my sunshine, My ony sunshine. I was successfully be able to play it. My mom played around with my uke and I had so much fun recording her. She is so funny. Made my day. And now, I'm writing this. I'll read some pages after this and go to sleep.
As one more day finishes, I feel motivated to continue. Thank you so much strangelet, Krishna and all of you. I'm truly grateful.
-strangelet