What to even say? Today was super weird. I do not know if I have broken any rules. I'll explain you why. I'll begin with what I dreamt last night. I think around 4:00 am, I woke up stressed. I had a dream where I was fighting a demon. It looked scary, To imagine it, think of the blanket ghost but in red, white and black colors combined as if random kid has drawn with those colors on it's robe and it's eyes are big black scratchy holes. I get stressed thinking about it. I was literally fighting with it. I kept saying chants of gods and kept praying. It used to go away and come back again. It was trying to tire me. I wasn't giving up. I was waiting for divine intervention. Then all I remember is seeing mother Chamundi's (a goddess) idol a worshiper carrying on a omni coming towards me. She is coming and I'm waiting for her fighting. She seemed far but she was coming. As soon as I woke up, I started interpreting the message my dream carried. What I felt was she is too far to come or something not too positive. It kind of made me worry. To relax, I went to out prayer room and looked at their faces(photos) and went back to bed and started listening to divine songs. I played Ai Giri Nandini.
After my mom woke up, I kind of hesitated sharing this with her. However, I made my mind up and told her to get her interpretation. She told me you are protected. She is protecting you. I felt that is right. If she wasn't protecting me or hesitating protecting me she would not show up. She was there smiling. Light's win is always permanent even. I just need to keep fighting the demon. Demons could be in any form; be it anger, ego or lust. I must fight it. I'm fighting it. I want to express my deepest gratitude to both my mother and our divine mother for protecting me. Thank you so much.
After I listened to the song, I felt this need to open YouTube. Sometimes I hear tarot readings. I opened it. it was exactly 4:44am I clicked on a video that said 4:44. For those who doesn't know, 444 is an angel number indication protection from guardian angels. I felt connected. I listened to the message and went on with my day. As usual I went for a walk with my dad and today we walked a little bit far. I came back home tired. After that, I started dancing because I had no energy to work out. I learnt Maestro chorus choreography and danced a little bit. After I had my breakfast, I was still tired went on bed. It's post work out fatigue. I had to go to the town with my mom today. I went there to shop some stuffs. I planned on backing a cake myself on my MOM's coming birthday. I got all the ingredients today. I had fun hanging out with her. I listened to music while I was on the bus. This is fair in my opinion as music is necessary. Don't you think so? I even had it in my rules that I'll listen to music while travelling, learning to play guitar, dance and sing. I had to wait for my mom at a place and I figured out that I didn't carry a book. So, I opened google play books and continued reading a book I started few months ago. I felt proud of myself.
You know I mentioned post-workout fatigue, I read some pages of digital minimalism and after that I practiced riptide on a uke too. You can do these things around that time; but, you can't really study which is more important for me. I need to talk to my trainer about this. I want to feel energetic not tired. I know I'm trying to loose weight but I'm also a student. While I was playing the Uke, my dad joined and danced a little for that. It was funny. Another time my mom entered and she also danced a little LOL. Another funny thing was while we were coming back from the town, I had left my phone in a auto rickshaw. I didn't notice that at all as I'm not looking at my phone as much. The auto driver himself called and noticed me. My parents were concerned about that while I was proud of myself. I think I won't go for walk tomorrow neither work out. I want a break for real. Me and my mom visited fish market after so long. I felt nostalgic.
Later In the day, I danced a little bit. I helped my grandmother who is almost 95 cut her nails. I ate jackfruit. I worked on some Physics problems. I played Uke. I also watched some videos to figure out what's wrong with my body. This was when I figured out I had post-workout fatigue. Closing everything, I started writing this. While I'm writing this, I just want to lie down and sleep. I'm closing now. Thank you for sticking with me. See you tomorrow.
-strangelet